Gomen ne...

My little brother is coming to town for school holidays work. Got him a job as promoter at Giordano outlet. I’m the one who suggested him to come to town for exposure. And now, I'm pissed off with myself.

All the while, I’ve been so used to lone-ranger lifestyle, attached with a “burden” suddenly, I’m so unused with it. Shouldn’t have called it as “burden” as it's too heavy to carry my meaning. Moreover, I should take the responsibility to taking care of him. What I can do for him are only arranging transportation, accommodation, bla bla bla…mama was so worry with her youngest child going to town for work. Aware of my frustration, she told me that this would be my last responsibility that I could offer for my little brother as other siblings are grown up and having their own life.

Thinking back of it, I have reacted too much. Either he or mama was so innocent to be my blame. If he were to know how to arrange his everything, would my assistance still needed here? What a typical sister have I become?! Too bad...sighing… I realized how selfish I am from the whole scenario – no wonder I’m born to be alone!!! I apologise on the irritation I have burst out during these whole period since he got the offer.

So sorry, my mama and little brother, and thanks for the endurance. Gomen ne…